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Joel's Birth Story: Born at Home, During a Worldwide Pandemic (with pictures)

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Since I was young, pregnancy and childbirth have always been something I was super interested in. I wanted to watch everything about them and hear every story. Back in 2015, six years into our marriage and one year before we got pregnant the first time, I came across a documentary called The Business of Being Born . It changed my whole view on birth and I fell in love with the idea of a natural homebirth. I remember telling Bryan that that’s what I wanted to do, and even though he watched it with me and agreed with what he saw, he still didn’t feel comfortable with the idea. We didn’t have much knowledge on the subject besides the one documentary and a couple of friends who had done it, so when we found out we were pregnant a year later, we just went the traditional route for prenatal care. Twenty-one weeks into that pregnancy we found out that our son Judah was “funneling” and I spent two weeks on my back in the hospital trying to keep him in. You can read his birth story here . I had...
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Lydia's Story

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Lydia’s story is one of grace, protection, hope and healing; and this is just the beginning. As the majority of you know, we lost our firstborn son unexpectedly due to me having an incompetent cervix. You can see his story here . We had gone in for our 21 week anatomy scan and were thrilled to find out what gender our baby was, only to find out that he was “falling” out of me. His legs and hips were already in the vaginal canal and we had no clue, until it was too late. I ended up spending two weeks in the hospital lying flat on my back trying to keep him in and on January 3rd, 2017, our son was born and passed away forty minutes later. At the time the Doctors were not sure why this happened. We didn’t know if he started coming because of some type of infection, if my body went into early labor or an incompetent cervix , which was the first time any of us had ever heard of that. Unfortunately, with an incompetent cervix, most women don’t know they have it until it’s too late. ...
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What Do You Require?

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Revelation is KEY to the Christian walk. It changes everything. The majority of this post is from the notes I took while watching a teaching from Barry Bennett called, "The Effectual Fervent Prayer of a Righteous Man."  I want to make sure that I give him credit where credit is due! I am so thankful for his faithfulness to share what God shows him! Before having Judah, they found two complex cysts on my right ovary. Since having him, they found that those cysts had merged together and made one bigger one and that a new one had also formed on my left ovary. It was bummer news to get right after the tragedy we experienced. That’s all I’m going to say about it though, because I got a little revelation about how much we talk to people about our problems and speak more life into our issues than speaking life into our promises of health and wholeness. So I am really trying to work on not talking about my problems all the time and talking about the promises that God has ...
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Full Faith, Strong Confidence

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Before conceiving Judah I battled terribly with fear, but God had already begun bringing me to new levels once I became pregnant with him, and so going through this has only refined me even more. He did not cause this, but He has brought goodness out of it, because He is the God of restoration. Right after my two week stay in the hospital, loving on our son once he was born and then having him die in my arms, I battled a lot with, "How else should I have prayed/I must not have had enough faith/I didn't use my authority over my body and my son's body correctly/etc." I still have to fight those thoughts . Even after this happened, I had a very hard time even praying for others, because my prayers hadn't seemed to work anymore. The son that we prayed and believed for had only lived for 40 minutes. I remember in the middle of the night, not long after we came home from the hospital, Bryan was sick in the bathroom. I remember starting to pray for him and then th...
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Dear Judah

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As I roll over in the early morning hours, with your little crocheted blanket that was wrapped around your tiny body tucked close to me, I look at your Daddy. In the dark shadows of his face, I can actually see your face, and behind him I see your stuffed animal sitting on his nightstand (he says it brings him comfort). You looked so much like your Daddy; you had his nose and his curled lips. I bet you would have even had his green eyes.  Our first morning after sleeping at home, I was half asleep and that was the first time I saw your face when looking at your Daddy’s. I reached over and placed my hand on his face thinking it was you and was quickly brought to reality when I felt his beard. I lay there and cried as I kept rubbing his face, only to have him wake up crying as well. We then just held each other close and cried as we talked about how much we already missed you. We missed you the moment the nurse told us you went on to Heaven. The morning you were born came so ...
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